[That's easier said than done. But he's starting to realize that that's exactly the kind of thinking that he entertains to allow him to keep doing what everyone is asking him not to do.]
[But that still doesn't change the fact that it's difficult. He's just having a hard time pinning down exactly why it is so damn hard to agree, to say "yes", to let someone help. Because how could they?]
[And how could he?]
[Her petting does calm him, though, especially with the silence. It doesn't help his thoughts much, but it does help him get a slightly better grip on them. So when her hand moves and he listens to her, he opens his eyes to look at hers.]
[He makes a leap (low, slightly cracked, yet still clear), but for the wrong reasons.]
action;
[But that still doesn't change the fact that it's difficult. He's just having a hard time pinning down exactly why it is so damn hard to agree, to say "yes", to let someone help. Because how could they?]
[And how could he?]
[Her petting does calm him, though, especially with the silence. It doesn't help his thoughts much, but it does help him get a slightly better grip on them. So when her hand moves and he listens to her, he opens his eyes to look at hers.]
[He makes a leap (low, slightly cracked, yet still clear), but for the wrong reasons.]
I saw myself.