Dale Cooper (
tapestodiane) wrote2011-08-20 11:36 pm
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020 - action + audio
[Audio recordings to Diane; not on the network]
(August 14th)
Am starting to feel overcome by a familiar, dark, oppressive feeling. Fairly certain it is the onset of a depression, but at this time I am reluctant to label it as such. For the most part I feel haunted by a perpetual hopelessness. Feeling emotionally numb. Am not sure what to do.
(August 17th)
Diane, I never thought I would say this without hesitation, but at this point in time I would like to go home. While my life there is significantly grayer and I would greatly miss my both pokémon and some of the people I have met in this world, I can't help but feel like I would have a lot less to lose. It is a much rarer event back home for people to disappear without warning.
Believe the last thing I said to Applejack was "talk to you later."
(August 18th)
Diane ... I am finding it increasingly difficult to find some kind of peace in Johto. Ecruteak is doing little to distract me from these thoughts. Think I will try to find France.
[Private audio to France:] France, it's Cooper. Are you still in Ecruteak?
[He sounds sort of tired, but otherwise carefully neutral.]
[Action:] [You can run into him anywhere in Ecruteak, where he'll be spending time walking practically every street, looking a little closed off. Unless you find him by night - he'll be near the lake, looking at the half moon.]
[Audio, broadcasted to the network; nighttime:] All things considered, it wasn't too long ago people believed you would go crazy if the moon shone on you while you slept.
[Enjoy that little bit of information, Johto.]
(ooc: BACKDATED to thursday the 18th.)
(August 14th)
Am starting to feel overcome by a familiar, dark, oppressive feeling. Fairly certain it is the onset of a depression, but at this time I am reluctant to label it as such. For the most part I feel haunted by a perpetual hopelessness. Feeling emotionally numb. Am not sure what to do.
(August 17th)
Diane, I never thought I would say this without hesitation, but at this point in time I would like to go home. While my life there is significantly grayer and I would greatly miss my both pokémon and some of the people I have met in this world, I can't help but feel like I would have a lot less to lose. It is a much rarer event back home for people to disappear without warning.
Believe the last thing I said to Applejack was "talk to you later."
(August 18th)
Diane ... I am finding it increasingly difficult to find some kind of peace in Johto. Ecruteak is doing little to distract me from these thoughts. Think I will try to find France.
[Private audio to France:] France, it's Cooper. Are you still in Ecruteak?
[He sounds sort of tired, but otherwise carefully neutral.]
[Action:] [You can run into him anywhere in Ecruteak, where he'll be spending time walking practically every street, looking a little closed off. Unless you find him by night - he'll be near the lake, looking at the half moon.]
[Audio, broadcasted to the network; nighttime:] All things considered, it wasn't too long ago people believed you would go crazy if the moon shone on you while you slept.
[Enjoy that little bit of information, Johto.]
(ooc: BACKDATED to thursday the 18th.)
[action]
[Pronouncing it like "okei", he appreciates it - a lot. And when the waitress comes around he asks for coffee and two jelly donuts.]
Re: [action]
[Sasha orders a cup of coffee and a piece of chocolate cake for himself. After the waitress leaves, he stays quiet for a few minutes, before deciding to speak up once more.]
I won't force you to talk about it, but it's not good to keep your feelings completely bottled up.
[action]
I don't think there's a whole lot to say about it. It's one of Johto's crueler tricks; people appear ... and disappear.
Re: [action]
[Sasha finds himself watching Cooper's actions idly, still struggling with what to say. The silence continues even after the waitress comes back with their orders and leaves just as quickly.]
[action]
[But having swalled it down with some coffee (coffee), he sighs and does make a bit of an attempt to explain.]
The nature of this place bothers me. It's an amazing world and we get to know it and people we never would have met otherwise - but everything points to the fact that we'll likely not remember anything of it when we return home, which, in effect, renders everything that happens here meaningless.
Re: [action]
[He gives the long scientific spiel first, before taking up his coffee mug and drinking slowly from it. After a long day of traveling, the sweet black elixir makes him feel much better.]
Does the coffee meet your expectations?
[action]
Either way, I believe my point still stands.
[Leaning back slightly, he takes another sip and offers a small smile.]
Not quite as good as in Violet. But it's warm and bitter enough -- better than decent.
Re: [action]
[He just nods, sitting his coffee mug down and looking forward at Cooper. Losing people and friends, he can most certainly relate to that.]
Good...I was worried that my choice wasn't up to your satisfaction. If there's anything else I can do, please don't hesitate to let me know.
[action]
[He nods, says "alright" and proceeds to eat more donut pieces. sugarrrr. He's probably not going to sleep tonight with all these things in his system, but hey.]
Re: [action]
I feel like we've had this discussion before...maybe when I was here the first time. I'm not going to worry about it though. When are you planning on challenging the gym?
[action]
[He preferred doing that after getting to know the towns.]
Re: [action]
Have you visited the legendary towers yet? I only walked by them briefly, but I've heard they're one of the towns major landmarks.
[action]
[-- mental balk at that shortly after he's said it. That's a pretty long time, and he'd almost not realized.]
No, not yet. But I will be sure to visit them sooner or later. I've heard a lot about them.
Re: [action]
[He just laughs lightly to himself.]
Sorry if I'm asking too many questions. Normally when I find myself getting depressed I try to think about other things.
[action]
[Nevermind that the case is crazy. He looks up though, and indicates another nod. He understands - he's not back on his animated self yet and speaks in a little more monotone than usual, but hey. Getting there.]
Makes sense.
Re: [action]
[Sasha is starting to feel like he's making progress, but in another way, he feels like he's doing very little to help Cooper out. Call it a fear of failure instinct.]
Perhaps. What made you choose to join the FBI, by the way?
[action]
The ideals. Wanting to help.
[What else? Dividing his second donut into pieces at this point.]
The bad guys need to have someone on their tail.
Re: [action]
That's very noble. I figured you picked the career after realizing your skills at a certain age.
[He takes another bite of cake calmly, savoring the taste.]
Someone always has to take out the bad guys. I've seen some of the smartest and stupidest criminals in my line of work.
[action]
I wanted to join the FBI when I was fourteen. It was years later I realized it was a possibility.
[Eating another piece, he doesn't really have a good answer for that, but gives the generall look of Yeah, I know what you mean.]