tapestodiane | 020 - action + audio

[Audio recordings to Diane; not on the network]

_{(August 14th)}
Am starting to feel overcome by a familiar, dark, oppressive feeling. Fairly certain it is the onset of a depression, but at this time I am reluctant to label it as such. For the most part I feel haunted by a perpetual hopelessness. Feeling emotionally numb. Am not sure what to do.

_{(August 17th)}
Diane, I never thought I would say this without hesitation, but at this point in time I would like to go home. While my life there is significantly grayer and I would greatly miss my both pokémon and some of the people I have met in this world, I can't help but feel like I would have a lot less to lose. It is a much rarer event back home for people to disappear without warning.

Believe the last thing I said to Applejack was "talk to you later."

_{(August 18th)}
Diane ... I am finding it increasingly difficult to find some kind of peace in Johto. Ecruteak is doing little to distract me from these thoughts. Think I will try to find France.

[Private audio to France:] France, it's Cooper. Are you still in Ecruteak?
_{[He sounds sort of tired, but otherwise carefully neutral.]}

[Action:] _{[You can run into him anywhere in Ecruteak, where he'll be spending time walking practically every street, looking a little closed off. Unless you find him by night - he'll be near the lake, looking at the half moon.]}

[Audio, broadcasted to the network; nighttime:] All things considered, it wasn't too long ago people believed you would go crazy if the moon shone on you while you slept.
_{[Enjoy that little bit of information, Johto.]

(ooc: BACKDATED to thursday the 18th.)}

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

But it is still the same person, aru. They may come back different and they may not remember, yes, that's true. However, that only means you can make new memories.

Hopefully, they don't come back from a difficult period in time, though, aru.

_{[While that sounds hopeful, it's much more painful than that - but at the same time, he doesn't want to shoot down China's attempts to make him feel better. So he doesn't say anything.]}

Did I say something wrong?

_{[He sighs, a little, but is sincere when he opens his mouth.]}

No. I ... _{[Pause - starts over.]} You're right. But it'd still be painful.

I think I would understand that pain very well at the moment since I'm dealing with a friend who does not remember, aru.

Or rather... that person comes from a date later than the one he was from when he first came to Johto, but he's still not in the same year as me. Therefore, he doesn't hold as many similar memories as I do, aru.

_{[Ah. There's another small silence, but more like he's thinking.]}

I'm happy I'm not in your shoes on that one, Yao.

You should be, aru. It's annoying having to watch everything that you say, it is as though I'm walking on eggshells.